Tuesday, 25 November 2014

for Lauren and Jamie with lots of love x

 Another new Baby on the way
 my niece Laurens baby shower!!
 She married the love of her life Jamie last year!!
 Its a boy!!!!!!
 lots of lovely food......

 Nana.....................
 family and friends!!
 plus Bean!!!
 what more could you want!!

 a little tipple!!!
 my sis made the food and amazing cakes as usual,

 we had a fantastic evening......


celebrating the coming of baby Teddy...........
 lots of lovely things to do!


thank you Lauren for inviting me and Rosa looking forward now to meeting my great nephew!!!x

Thursday, 13 November 2014

A camera stuck to me always!


I started off tonight putting up photos from my ever busy week..taken in between work cleaning house taking dogs to vets shopping and caring for my son who's not too good at the moment!






 

isn't  Bean so sweet!

 
Dinners id cooked!




Flowers from  a very dear friend thank you Joan x





Then i spy this! Anne and George dancing in their front garden! i smile  and am suddenly there....The nicest kindest lady to walk this planet Anne ... they were my mum and father in law She was  very intelligent  and so very very kind  i didn't realise how much i loved her  until she died suddenly at an early age i ofton think about her ...George is still well and truly here and i visit  with Thomas  when he goes back to Newcastle with Sue and Hollyanne   even though hes cant walk  far now hes still George full f fun and as bright as a button!i took so many photos of them which of course I'm finding now.............




 My eldest Thomas  aged about four...The first child in the UK to be awarded a Northern arts grant I'm still very proud of him....Hes a fantastic artist still ............





Hidden gems! every day I'm finding amazing images and memories my baby sis and me! I remember who took this its amazing how an image can bring back  memories that have lain sleeping for  thirty odd years! even smells sounds! this was taken by our friend Archie perched on top of the ruins of a small church in the burn...what  was i whispering to her????How i wish i could go back just for a few minutes  to find out!such happy memories......



 of course lots of these photos are really old and in bad condition ..Ive spent hours editing them  time just slips by without me even noticing...sitting in the dark  quiet house in the early hours  just remembering...its been such a wonderful experience....healing in lots of ways  this is my aunt and uncle mum and grandma at  a family wedding...such a fuzzy faded picture but the day was replayed in my mind as crisp and real as the day it happened............





Lovely lovely friends that i left behind nearly 19 year ago when i moved from  everything i loved and crept into a future which was so different...to be honest it wasn't a happy time and i missed my family and my amazing friends so so much my comfort blanket  ...people who cared  friends id treasured  for years ...who i knew i could rely on who were my rock...this is Pat i still miss her every day ........


Me in my thirty's still with my trusty camera where did that jumper come from!!!!!

 

Fuzzy black and white images stare back at me omg!!my cousin Elizabeth ..visiting my mum  posing in the front garden...the amount of pictures that were took in that garden!
 my mum staring in to my camera lens....looking straight in to my eyes i was overwhelmed when i saw this and cried...my mum having a cuppa before she set off to work ...she  cleaned a local school and its only now i can understand how hard she worked and what an amazing role model she was.....she looks so young!


and me thank god still taking pictures.............


 Booger my puppy....................

Me  at forty two  married and with  my new husband and  my longed for little girl that little girls nearly eighteen!!! time gone a blink of an eye!!!every  era of my life captured on film!



Sonia one of my dearest Friends  we ran a woman's group with my sister and another few girls  and this was an amazing weekend camping.....unbelievable memories!!!


The most amazing thing to come out of this project is the pictures of my dad...my amazing  amazing dad who died  well before his time ...just seeing him again !his black curly hair and wonderful smile...it was so comforting...id forgotten the sound of his voice and that has always bothered me but suddenly he was there staring into  the camera smile on his face enjoying a holiday in Scotland with my mam and friends.....





I think this picture is the one that just stopped me in my tracks   unable to breathe ....overcome with emotion ..this is my late husband...me and him posing for Thomas.....riding  his bike up and down the country track not far from where we lived  wed only been married a year..an amazing afternoon that had just vanished from my memory....Thomas bought a negative scanner...not expensive....in fact it was under thirty pounds...but the joy  and the sadness the regrets and the tears the laughter and the immense pleasure that this tiny bit of  technology has brought has been immense....i have 1000 s of negatives but i also have a close family and  my nieces have followed in my footsteps  all brilliant photographer's ...this is my gift to them  ....hours editing old damaged photos....i hope they  follow in my footsteps  for our future generations    x






Peppermint.....

 Rosas beautiful new kitty x