My beautiful girl x

I cant belive how much Hollyann is growing!!! Here she is crawling after grandma!!!

 She just loves posing!! good job as poor baby has my camera stuck in that gorgeous  face all the time..............

and here she is  shouting at me!! and showing her lovely new teeth!! love you sweetie xxx

This makes me smile x

A lapse ....a look into the worries of a carer and her family x

This picture typifies  the life that me and my family have faced for years....i have never blogged about this before. Ive mentioned that we   have a son that has autism...we love him very much , Ive never mentioned how hard it is to have an NORMAL LIFE ..whats normal??? For us its the every day struggles  of living with some one who's reality is totally different to the norm...whats normal???

 The hopes and expectations that you have when you first hold this amazing person when their first born.....the rush of love that has no bounds...the bond that are there till the day you die....My baby nearly died at birth an experience that i still struggle to come to terms with we were told then that he had a very high risk of some kind of brain damage but thank god he grew into the wonderful son he is  now...........

 Yes he has problems ...........but who doesn't have  yes hes on the spectrum with every thing that goes with that!!Yes we have  constant frustrations that come from someone who's  so sensitive  mentally and physically.Ive read  for years carbon copies of my sons problems that thousands of families   also have to go through on a daily basis........

We fumble through life.......constantly with  is he OK  will this set him off have i handled this right!! Unfortunately not all the help or support we have been given over the years has been good or positive they've hovered on the sideline  some really nice well meaning people but  we felt because we were a supportive and loving family we were  just left to cope...especially in the last five years..........

 and NO i didn't put in for all the  monetary benefits that i was told too.....i never put in for caring allowance or high payments....i  always thought well I'm his mother i care for him anyway. I  was wrong!! how i wish id done this and maybe i wouldn't be in the dire situation I'm in now.............I'm talking about government cut backs!! We've been left for years to sort things out or selves ...lovely mental health nurses popping in  every two weeks for thirteen years to SEE how things are....Sean's  friends as he would think.i so  didn't want this to turn into a rant!! but like so many people hes been put onto social care????  what is this???  no explanation?   a meeting with a social worker who was more interested in her car parking meeter running out??? she doesn't know my son??  she was RUDE AND INAPPROPRIATE??? whats going on?????

whats going on is we've been dumped! like millions of people in the same situation...government cut backs!!! Ive listened to dozens and dozens of people who are scared....unsure of their future...don't know what to do ...a bit like us......my son now has someone who comes out once a week to walk with him to help him get over his agoraphobia.an amazing man...a christian man  who my son really likes...he likes most people...he has three month to get him back to NORMAL!!  whats normal???? the mind boggles at the people who are the experts!!! the people in the know!!!...sorry this has turned into a rant.........but i don't know where to turn.or whats going to happen  in the future its never been about money its about support and help...my heart goes out to those people who have no one .a sign of these awful times we live in xxxxxxxxx

AUTUMN

My favourite of all seasons .even though its cold and rainy i  just love the colours  that spring up all around.........

its as if overnight the ground is splattered with amazing colour!!

everything looks so vibrant!!!and its a reminder that Christmas is on its way.........

The excitement of pumpkins and costumes trick r treating!!!

 Then bonfire night..................

 Hot soup, fires the smell of smoke and the sky lit up by all the colours of the rainbow!!!

 The cold is really setting in now and out come the winter clothes the slow cooker and hot water bottles!!!

Its a really special year for us as we have our beautiful little gran daughter  growing up and enjoying all these special things that make  up our traditions and life in the UK..................

The summer-flower has run to seed,
And yellow is the woodland bough;
And every leaf of bush and weed
Is tipt with autumn’s pencil now.

captured on my phone................

 Sunflowers gone!!bunny breakfast!!!

 imitation will have to do!

 struggling with housework!

 new stamp!

crafting with the girls...........................

 resisting temptation!!!

packing..lots of packing!!

more packing!!

 Dieting!!

some down time...............

the last of the sweet peas!!

A VERY SPECIAL BLOG!!!!

 This week i found out that some of my great nieces and nephews were starting to follow my blog!!!!This is just for them!!!...Can you guess who these pictures are of ....love you all very muchly Auntie FiFixxxxxx

my mad girlys x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SEAN X

 Last night we went for a meal with family  and good friends...........for Sean's Birthday................

 Sean!!!

 Scott and Rosa ..cousins!!

 Mr MO came along looking very smart!

 Dimpsxxx

 Granny Joan Craig  and Patrick choosing their meals!!

 Little Holly Ann came dressed as a lady bird,,her hallo ween costume uncle Sean bought her i didnt take any close ups as she wasn't at all well as shes cutting teeth poor thing!!

 Enjoying her spaghetti...........................

 Thumbs up!

 Julie and Gary came along..........................

 Sean with his lovely granny Joan..................

 Siblings!!!!

 Sue and Dimply..............

 Sean being silly!!!

Happy Birthday son..............................

Blowing out his candles...........................

Sean had steak!!

Patrick and Mo!!

going going GONE!!!!!

My starter!!!

Scott and Sean..................

 My lovely Tom x

and guess who was at the next table!!! Judith and family celebrating Andrews Birthday!!! Happy Birthday Andrew!!!

Uncle and nephew.................What a great night we had  thank you to everyone who came and a big hug to Karin who was ill and couldn't make it we missed you xxx